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basic work of doing this recovery gig, creates the opportunity for me to have a life that i am worth having. i know i often bitch and moan about how hard it seems to be to do the next right thing. my peers often add to that chorus with the bon mot that recovery is simple, just not easy. i wholeheartedly agree with this caveat, it seems the more i do it -- live a program of active recovery -- the easier it becomes. i do remember my chagrin when i discovered that all i had to do, back in the day, was to change everything. it was a good thing i did not have to change everything, all at once. 😉
today, as i finish one project for work and get started on the next one, i feel a bit more secure about my skills and abilities. another perfect week in Fantasy Football adds to that bit of satisfaction with where i am today and as i put in some miles this morning, i know that IF i choose the easier and softer path, i will not get the workout i desire. the same goes for my spiritual fitness program AKA a life based on living an active program of recovery. sure it is easy in the comfort of my well-heated and comfortable home to say that, but the real question arises when i walk out the door and start to interact with those around me. life in the real world presents more than a few challenges from day to day.
there are some with whom i interact with, across the course of the past few days, that i have not given the benefit of the doubt. i do believe it is rude to be carrying on a conversation with someone and to make a phone call at the same time. rude to both parties, and some people just do not get it. time and again, that person has demonstrated that they are so wrapped up in fear and self-interest that they lack the capacity to see what is going on around them. i know that getting angry over once again being an “after thought” is not a proper response. oh yeah i was going to add a huge BUT there, but i decided to leave that statement stand on its own. the fact is, they will NEVER meet my expectations so my best course of action is to let those expectations go and accept that they are just what they are and have no impetus to be any better.
right here and right now, it is time to get outside and enjoy the warmer (?) weather, after all twenty-five beats the shit out of seventeen 😜, today and every day! my credo for today? remember what it took for me to reach this fitness level, emotionally, physically and spiritually and stop expecting others to advance their levels of fitness, after all i was not a volunteer at first to being more fit, but i am certainly one today.

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