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with courage, is not the same as walking through life fearlessly. no matter what i think about FEAR and how it once ruled my life, i can say without hesitation that there is still FEAR in my life, and i am learning to have the courage to walk through it.there are all sorts of thing i need to evaluate and reevaluate in my life. off the top of my list, is whether or not my peer, who took my hoodie on Saturday was a thief or trying to be a Good Samaritan. their reply that they thought i had been left behind, in an unusual place, was a statement i read to be rationalizing their theft. oddly enough, i could see that maybe they thought they would grab it and ask around if anyone was missing their hoodie. as i considered how i might arrive at the decision to take something that was not mine, with the intention of finding its rightful owner, i know the first question would be to ask everyone in the room if this item happened to belong to them, and if not, did they know to whom it belonged? that is just me and maybe expecting someone to do their due diligence before walking off with something, before everyone else had left, is far too much. that is a huge hoop to jump through and their behavior after the fact, when they did not reach out to anyone to ask if they knew to whom that hoodie belonged, makes that scenario more than suspect. Occam's razor says the simplest answer is most often the correct one, so i will leave it at that, a thief or just a tool, either way, not a good look.
today, as i face what have to do for my employer, i am afraid that i “need” to be looking for a new position, but do not want to give the time away that i could be using to pound out the code that needs to roll in a few weeks. on that cheery and frightening note, i think i will post this, walk forward into my day and see what i can get accomplished as this day rolls on. the toolish thief? well i will forgive them and let it go, as i can see no place where they might have had good intentions and pray that they find the path to integrity and honesty.

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