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Posted: Sun, Feb 22, 2026 12:28:13 PM
is a spiritual principle i value and a quality i want to bring to my relationships, then i need to practice it. i will not go into the confusion that this term caused way back when, but i know today intimacy is not about sex, although sex may be a part of some of my intimate relationships. no, these days i know that being intimate with someone is all about being honest about the person i am and being willing to show that person to others. my source material was all about trust and intimacy. i can say without any hesitation, that i probably never had any sort of intimate relationship, save for sexual ones, in active addiction. as i stated above that hardly counts as intimate, but it was the closest i could get.
in the past few years, after defeating the lie that held me down for decades through the power of the FIFTH Step, intimacy has come to mean so much more. as i come to terms with who i am and where i am going, i can allow others to see my uncertainty in my identity as well as the new parts of me that seem to be coming to life. retirement and retail seem to working together to bring out all sorts of new desires in me. i have finished the skeleton of my novella and am trying to decide if an epilogue is called for or if just turning it into a novel is the next right thing to do. i know that reaching out the other day was the right thing to do and as i spoke with my peer yesterday, he seemed genuinely pleased that i spent time talking to him, even though i wanted to bolt and get ready for work. what i am learning most of all, is that i am not quite the social retard i believed i was. i can and do make small talk with my customers and am practicing that ability with my peers in the rooms. more and more i am growing comfortable with trusting others enough to let them in. oh do not get me wrong, those gates are still well guarded and only a select few make it past. that select few, however, is growing in number. just for today, i can be okay trusting bothers to see the real me and if i get hurt, well that will be on them and not on me.
in the past few years, after defeating the lie that held me down for decades through the power of the FIFTH Step, intimacy has come to mean so much more. as i come to terms with who i am and where i am going, i can allow others to see my uncertainty in my identity as well as the new parts of me that seem to be coming to life. retirement and retail seem to working together to bring out all sorts of new desires in me. i have finished the skeleton of my novella and am trying to decide if an epilogue is called for or if just turning it into a novel is the next right thing to do. i know that reaching out the other day was the right thing to do and as i spoke with my peer yesterday, he seemed genuinely pleased that i spent time talking to him, even though i wanted to bolt and get ready for work. what i am learning most of all, is that i am not quite the social retard i believed i was. i can and do make small talk with my customers and am practicing that ability with my peers in the rooms. more and more i am growing comfortable with trusting others enough to let them in. oh do not get me wrong, those gates are still well guarded and only a select few make it past. that select few, however, is growing in number. just for today, i can be okay trusting bothers to see the real me and if i get hurt, well that will be on them and not on me.
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