๐ courage ๐
Posted: Sun, Jul 9, 2023 03:31:42 PM
to walk my path, which today was nine miles long and thirty-four hundred feet of vertical elevation. although i am more than sure that reading was not talking my physical journey today, it is sort of applicable, if i read it quite literally. moving out of the literal reading and into what i heard as i sat and listened this morning and shut down the noise about what i was going to do today and how i was going to make my deadline of 6:15 AM to catch my ride to climb St Vrain Mountain, i got a glimpse of where my spiritual journey has brought me and perhaps where it may be taking me.
i have quite the life today, full of desires, wants and needs. i have a job that is furthering my career, friends who like even though i do not have lots of dough. a loving spouse who has stuck through our relationship, even though i less than honest about a shit ton of stuff. i have a home and i have the resources to buy my ticket to Africa this afternoon. i had none of this when i got clean and actually gave up any hope of attaining anything like the life i have today, unless of course i won the POWERBALL. through the work i have done, after coming to recovery i have found the courage to defuse my secret shame, find a place in the world that is equal to those around me and more than a little self-worth and self-respect. with the spiritual principles, especially courage and humility, i now am quite capable of living a life that is centered in active recovery and provides for all my needs, just for today.
i have quite the life today, full of desires, wants and needs. i have a job that is furthering my career, friends who like even though i do not have lots of dough. a loving spouse who has stuck through our relationship, even though i less than honest about a shit ton of stuff. i have a home and i have the resources to buy my ticket to Africa this afternoon. i had none of this when i got clean and actually gave up any hope of attaining anything like the life i have today, unless of course i won the POWERBALL. through the work i have done, after coming to recovery i have found the courage to defuse my secret shame, find a place in the world that is equal to those around me and more than a little self-worth and self-respect. with the spiritual principles, especially courage and humility, i now am quite capable of living a life that is centered in active recovery and provides for all my needs, just for today.
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