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Posted: Thu, Jul 9, 2015 10:09:22 AM
seeing the miracle of recovery, i NEED to look again.
so it has been quite a topsy-turvy twelve hours, starting with a phone call, that there was water on my basement floor, from my water heater. the water shut-off valve was soldered shut, so the water seepage kept on happening all night. so i ran to the office early this morning and got what i needed to work from home, had two meetings and am finally getting around to getting my ideas down for the cyber world.
yes i certainly can be one of those who practices false humility when it comes to how far i have come in my recovery. somewhere down the line i got the notion of not taking credit for my recovery mixed up with the results of doing the footwork that fosters my recovery. honestly, coming from a conceited and arrogant person, such as myself, there is a very fine line to walk, and most of the time, when i err, i err on the side of false humility. part of that goes to looking like the “spiritual guru” that i want to be, and part of it is trying not to look like something i am not. yes once again, this behavior falls back to one of the persistent character traits that still annoy me.
so the hot water heater will get fixed, one of the gifts of recovery is my slush fund in savings that can cover this. i will get my work done, another gift: i have a job i can do in the comfort of my own home. more importantly, i will not have to use or worry over this. this water has been shut-off, the basement floor is drying out, i am working hard, or will be again in a few minutes and i really do not feel the chaos that this chain of events would have caused, back in the day.
yes it is good day to be clean and i need to give my daily addict a jingle as well, as that is part of the program that has come to be a apart of my daily life.
so it has been quite a topsy-turvy twelve hours, starting with a phone call, that there was water on my basement floor, from my water heater. the water shut-off valve was soldered shut, so the water seepage kept on happening all night. so i ran to the office early this morning and got what i needed to work from home, had two meetings and am finally getting around to getting my ideas down for the cyber world.
yes i certainly can be one of those who practices false humility when it comes to how far i have come in my recovery. somewhere down the line i got the notion of not taking credit for my recovery mixed up with the results of doing the footwork that fosters my recovery. honestly, coming from a conceited and arrogant person, such as myself, there is a very fine line to walk, and most of the time, when i err, i err on the side of false humility. part of that goes to looking like the “spiritual guru” that i want to be, and part of it is trying not to look like something i am not. yes once again, this behavior falls back to one of the persistent character traits that still annoy me.
so the hot water heater will get fixed, one of the gifts of recovery is my slush fund in savings that can cover this. i will get my work done, another gift: i have a job i can do in the comfort of my own home. more importantly, i will not have to use or worry over this. this water has been shut-off, the basement floor is drying out, i am working hard, or will be again in a few minutes and i really do not feel the chaos that this chain of events would have caused, back in the day.
yes it is good day to be clean and i need to give my daily addict a jingle as well, as that is part of the program that has come to be a apart of my daily life.
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