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Posted: Mon, Jul 28, 2025 10:09:00 AM
benefits i have derived from service have come from practicing love and generosity. this morning, i am a bit off my game as i do not feel like do anything, now that i have run, ferried my wife to her auto mechanic and am now pounding out this little hit or miss. one of the offers for a job i received over the past week, is without a doubt some sort of scam and i am waiting for the other shoe to drop on that one. i got verbally abused while walking my dog this morning by someone who did not seem to be having a good morning. the good part of that interaction is that i said nothing, i did not defend, or explain myself, as i did absolutely nothing wrong, although the word bitch slipped out into my consciousness. 😖 i guess that is certainly a symptom of not yet being cured! 😉
what i heard this morning was a version of the reading i did not expect: allowing myself to accept the generosity of others, as well as give it of myself. i may still be a “lone wolf,” but day by day, i feel more need to be connected to the world around me. as i consider the benefits of being better connected versus the benefits of being alone, i see that for me, the benefits of being alone are reaching a point of diminishing returns. more and more i have the desire to get out of the house and do something, anything that will be with other human beings, rather than being cooped up, doing the same old thing. it is too bad, that there is no one around here to be a running partner, as that is one of the quietest things i do by myself.
i do, however, need to go peruse the job boards and see if there are any jobs that may be a fit to my, oh so unique, skill-set. i am certainly grateful this morning, after seeing the size of my Social Security benefit, that all those decades of working, did pay off, sort of. i may not be able to totally retire, but i now know what i need to make each month to maintain our home and lifestyle. just for today, however, i will revel in the knowledge that i do not need to fade into obscurity, physically, emotionally, mentally or spiritually, as i have the desire to live in a manner that allows me to be a bit fitter than i was yesterday.
what i heard this morning was a version of the reading i did not expect: allowing myself to accept the generosity of others, as well as give it of myself. i may still be a “lone wolf,” but day by day, i feel more need to be connected to the world around me. as i consider the benefits of being better connected versus the benefits of being alone, i see that for me, the benefits of being alone are reaching a point of diminishing returns. more and more i have the desire to get out of the house and do something, anything that will be with other human beings, rather than being cooped up, doing the same old thing. it is too bad, that there is no one around here to be a running partner, as that is one of the quietest things i do by myself.
i do, however, need to go peruse the job boards and see if there are any jobs that may be a fit to my, oh so unique, skill-set. i am certainly grateful this morning, after seeing the size of my Social Security benefit, that all those decades of working, did pay off, sort of. i may not be able to totally retire, but i now know what i need to make each month to maintain our home and lifestyle. just for today, however, i will revel in the knowledge that i do not need to fade into obscurity, physically, emotionally, mentally or spiritually, as i have the desire to live in a manner that allows me to be a bit fitter than i was yesterday.
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