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saw that i was not alone, i was freed from the isolation and alienation of addiction. i had come to the place in my life, where i thought being alone was the best it was going to get. my friendships were shallow transactional relationships. i was working, sort of for my family, so had very little accountability. i could not maintain any sort of romantic relationship and even just having sex was getting too complicated. it was not until i started coming around the rooms that i realized that i was not only isolated, by choice, i also had alienated myself from the world around me. i thought i was okay, living in that grey and joyless world, but as i started to see what those in the rooms had, i started to have the desire to get more, of course, however it took me the better part of two years to finally understand that If i wanted what i saw, i would have to do what they did.
well this morning, my three obsessions collided and as a result, i almost did not have time to fix my fantasy lineup before the morning games kicked off i got my run in, i made my lineup changes, and i got another “perfect” base to start with tomorrow afternoon. i may play a little bit more this afternoon, after enjoying a cigar and some football. i may just read my book or even take a nap, as i have to spend a bit more time at home, as my spouse is on her way to Boston to see her grandson and the dawg is not taking well to part of the pack being gone.
anyhow, today, i am connected to my peers, my closed mouth friends, my loved ones and my family. i am willing to share what i have with any who ask. i almost forgot to reach out, damn obsessions. 😜 after all, it is a good day to be clean, just for today!

∞ DT ∞