having to be right
Posted: Tue, Oct 12, 2004 06:01:19 AM
when i got here, i was always right even when i was wrong. it was important to my battered self-image that i be right and on those rare moments that i discovered i was wrong i had to spin the evidence so i still appeared to be right.
thank GOD i have a sponsor and a program of recovery. today i can not only admit to not knowing something, i can even (GASP) admit to being wrong. regardless if i am misinterpreting the facts, lack enough knowledge or have the knowledge but behave wrongly, i can admit my errors and revise my world view to incorporate the new evidence.
i am not the inflexible rigid sort that needs to always be right anymore. does that mean that i am perfect, no just more perfect than i was before and if i remain flexible, open-minded and willing i will be continue to be more perfect tomorrow. will i ever achieve perfect knowledge? maybe but doubtful after all i am only human subject to misinterpretations, passion and emotional responses but the knowledge that i can get better is more than enough for me just for today.
-- DT --
BTW --
i came through my tests yesterday and i feel good today. i did not wilt or hide from any of those professionals and was who and what i am -- an addict in recovery who only wants to do what he can to save a friend's LIFE!
thank GOD i have a sponsor and a program of recovery. today i can not only admit to not knowing something, i can even (GASP) admit to being wrong. regardless if i am misinterpreting the facts, lack enough knowledge or have the knowledge but behave wrongly, i can admit my errors and revise my world view to incorporate the new evidence.
i am not the inflexible rigid sort that needs to always be right anymore. does that mean that i am perfect, no just more perfect than i was before and if i remain flexible, open-minded and willing i will be continue to be more perfect tomorrow. will i ever achieve perfect knowledge? maybe but doubtful after all i am only human subject to misinterpretations, passion and emotional responses but the knowledge that i can get better is more than enough for me just for today.
-- DT --
BTW --
i came through my tests yesterday and i feel good today. i did not wilt or hide from any of those professionals and was who and what i am -- an addict in recovery who only wants to do what he can to save a friend's LIFE!