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once upon a time, those words were the source of great distress for me, as i was never an equal to anyone, in my own opinion. i know now, what the driving force was behind my less than stellar opinion of myself, and am working on removing the final dregs of that from my current self. today, just for today, i can survive without the praise and admiration of others. i do not require nor desire their approval and need not seek permission to live as i choose to do. as confounding as that may seem to some of those on whom i wish to rely, for me the way is very straightforward. as someone who has found his voice and is uncovering his identity, falling back into my “know-it-all” behavior is not an action i choose to take. pandering for approval and respect is also a behavior i choose to avoid these days, i am more than good enough without others telling me so.
moving into the here and now, i am starting to get a clue or three about how to navigate through the politics at work. i may be a short-timer there, but i am going to give it my best and start my hunt for my next contract next week. here is yet another case of me being worth more than i once thought i was. as i get ready to step out on this chilly morning, i am certain that the person that reached out to me at three-thirty yesterday afternoon, will more than likely do so again today, at probably the exact same time. i really do hate doing for others what they can do for themselves, even though they fall into the “i can't” trap, when they mean they are unwilling to try. today, i will be patient and see if i can guide them through to a place where the problem is resolved and perhaps they learn something new. right here and right now, it is time to hit the streets and pound some miles in. it is a good day to be “right” but i do not need crow about being so.

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