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it does not matter if i call it God, a Higher Power, or anything else -- just as long as i find a way to incorporate that Power into my daily life. so i can go so many directions with this reading. many of those roads i have already explored and what i FEEL like writing about this morning is probably a bit off topic. just in case someone is reading this for the first time, i was not one of those who had a concept of a HIGHER POWER working in my life when i came to recovery and had to use the group and the fellowship as my very first baby step into this world of the divine. as a result, my path to spirituality as fraught with pitfalls and missteps as it was, has led me to an understanding and an acceptance that goes far beyond the lip service i paid to the concept back when i was just acting **as if.**
what i felt this morning after a particularly quiet meditation session, was a sense of gratitude for having to come to my concept of a HIGHER POWER, the hard way. that path allowed me to critically examine my beliefs and my understanding of the TRUTH, and let go of the insane notion, that i actually knew what was going on. okay, life is not some sort of mystery, nor am i some sort of mystic seeking enlightenment from the SOURCE. i am, however, an addict that is on the path of recovery, and that path includes repairing my broken spiritual self as i heal the physical and emotional scars of active addiction. the group and the fellowship provide me the tools and the directions for staying on that path, and i have come to see them as my text messages from the divine. those instant blasts of what i need to hear are available to me, even if i am not listening, and while that implies free will and all of those other trappings of a religious take on the spiritual nature of my path, i choose to see it as being present for what is going on, inside and outside of me. today i can accept that there is a POWER that is providing for mt needs by giving me the strength and the tools to stay clean, and so much more -- my job, and i DO choose to accept it -- is to be present for that POWER as it is manifest in my moment to moment life. so it is off to fix a smoldering firs and into my busy day to see what i can accomplish! before i go…
…it is a good day to let that POWER do its thing for me in my life.

∞ DT ∞