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Fri, May 26, 2006 07:37:01 AM
∞ looking for a bit of evidence ∞
posted: Fri, May 26, 2006 07:37:01 AM
...of a HIGHER POWER working in my life this morning. this morning is the type of morning that would have justified using just a little bit to get back to normal. i could go through the laundry list of everything that has gone wrong since i first thought about leaving my comfortable state of bliss in bed, but why should i bore you, my faithful readers, with a litany of events that i perceive as evil. needless to say, i have had to restart my day a couple of times just to get a bit of balance and rationality.
now on to the reading, what i really need is to find just a bit of evidence that i am on the right track, in this moment. i can whine with the best of them and that is what i really want to do, but what would it really accomplish? it would not connect me to the divine, it would not change the events of the morning, and it probably would not help me feel any better about my day.
so exactly what is this addict to do? :-((
well for one, i can take another deep breath, close my eyes, and allow something to fill me other than anger and bitterness. and i do not mean another cup of coffee, although that was what came to mind.
there really is something working in my life today, beyond my understanding. and right here, right now, i am finally ready to face the world and see what comes my way! so off to the showers and the races to see if I can have a better day.
now on to the reading, what i really need is to find just a bit of evidence that i am on the right track, in this moment. i can whine with the best of them and that is what i really want to do, but what would it really accomplish? it would not connect me to the divine, it would not change the events of the morning, and it probably would not help me feel any better about my day.
so exactly what is this addict to do? :-((
well for one, i can take another deep breath, close my eyes, and allow something to fill me other than anger and bitterness. and i do not mean another cup of coffee, although that was what came to mind.
there really is something working in my life today, beyond my understanding. and right here, right now, i am finally ready to face the world and see what comes my way! so off to the showers and the races to see if I can have a better day.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
2) The multitude of men look satisfied and pleased; as if enjoying
a full banquet, as if mounted on a tower in spring. I alone seem listless
and still, my desires having as yet given no indication of their presence.
I am like an infant which has not yet smiled. I look dejected and
forlorn, as if I had no home to go to. The multitude of men all have
enough and to spare. I alone seem to have lost everything. My mind
is that of a stupid man; I am in a state of chaos. Ordinary men look
bright and intelligent, while I alone seem to be benighted. They look
full of discrimination, while I alone am dull and confused. I seem
to be carried about as on the sea, drifting as if I had nowhere to
rest. All men have their spheres of action, while I alone seem dull
and incapable, like a rude borderer. (Thus) I alone am different from
other men, but I value the nursing-mother (the Tao).