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...with everyone and everything i encounter or i can recall the benefits of my first surrender and stop fighting.
so as i sit here on family vacation, the opportunities to surrender to what is are a bit overwhelming. i have a sibling who is treating me and everyone else like we are his kids, i have a parent who is drinking and being demanding and self-entitled, and of course as i sit here typing away everyone wants to talk to me. what am i doing? well up until the reading this morning i was swallowing my frustration and internalizing the anger that was coming up. so what will i do differently? well taking my cue from the reading this morning, i will accept what i cannot change. my sibling is who he is, and will certainly keep trying to be my dad. my solution, is to walk away and allow him to be in charge. my parent, well she too, is who she is, i accept that as fact, and even though i keep telling her what i need, she refuses to accept it, so i will make accommodations to her and take care of myself.
the other fact i am in thee process of surrendering to, is that things wear out. i am locked out of my computer at home, because i need a new piece of equipment, so my computer at home gets a long deserved rest, my vacation just got whole lot more chillaxing as i cannot see my work from home. things are how they are, and i can surrender to facts that they have chosen roles to play, i can play along and fill the roles they want me to, or i can just be myself, and walk away, emotionally and physically, when the frustration starts to build. unlike them, i have the tools available to me to be more than i was yesterday. frustrated and resentful, or accepting and serene. i will surrender and go out for a run. life is good today, and all i have to dom is accept what is and go on.

∞ DT ∞