๐ฌ it is a good thing ๐ช
Posted: Tue, Jun 23, 2026 11:34:48 AM
that there is no such thing as a professional recovering addict or i would certainly aspire to be one. :) i know i can come off cynical, over bearing and full of wonderful sage advice, that is just who i am. i also know that none of those attributes may be attractive to an addict who is wondering if they belong. i also am fairly sure that is i am not my authentic self, they will detect that as well. the trick, it seems, that in my own unique manner of carrying the message i have to find the ways and means to temper who i am with the message i am striving to carry. catching myself before the pendulum swings to the extremes is my goal and one i am getting better at achieving these days. part of that process is paying attention, being present and “reading the room.” with those three simple, not easy, constraints, i may actually have an attractive message.
of course my life is not as simple as being concerned about the message i am trying to carry. what is playing out now in my FOURTH STEP. i have the six person-centric resentments finished and now moving on to groups and institutions. those have more heat and passion than the personal ones for some reason, more than likely because they are in my face on a daily basis. my fear with these two resentments is that i will gloss over my part in them, after all, i did vote against the final outcome in 2024 and yet i am pissed daily about the consequences of that outcome happens to be. to me, WOKE and TDS are not insults, i see them as compliments. when i was growing up i was taught critical thinking and using multiple sources to arrive at facts. in these days of political figures flat-out lying and presenting “alternative facts,” i have to struggle daily to find my center. tourists do not batter police officers over the head with signs, most of the time. dark blue bottomed pools will grow algae if allowed to, especially in the summer sun and heat. paying a country 300 billion dollars to repair the damage of an 80 billion dollar war is not a victory. the litany of what i hear and have to deal with, goes on and on and on. my FEAR is that even if i write and share these two resentments, i will be unable to let them go. i guess that is what my sponsor is for, to help me find a path to sanity, in the face of these daily assaults on the actual truth. my job today, is to write them out and see where that process takes me. now i know why one of he men i sponsor is having so many issues at releasing the resentment that is preventing him from moving on. this process will allow me to be a better sponsor and perhaps suggest a path for him, like me, to move forward out of darkness of carrying he burden of resentments. just for today, i will write and see what is uncovered.
of course my life is not as simple as being concerned about the message i am trying to carry. what is playing out now in my FOURTH STEP. i have the six person-centric resentments finished and now moving on to groups and institutions. those have more heat and passion than the personal ones for some reason, more than likely because they are in my face on a daily basis. my fear with these two resentments is that i will gloss over my part in them, after all, i did vote against the final outcome in 2024 and yet i am pissed daily about the consequences of that outcome happens to be. to me, WOKE and TDS are not insults, i see them as compliments. when i was growing up i was taught critical thinking and using multiple sources to arrive at facts. in these days of political figures flat-out lying and presenting “alternative facts,” i have to struggle daily to find my center. tourists do not batter police officers over the head with signs, most of the time. dark blue bottomed pools will grow algae if allowed to, especially in the summer sun and heat. paying a country 300 billion dollars to repair the damage of an 80 billion dollar war is not a victory. the litany of what i hear and have to deal with, goes on and on and on. my FEAR is that even if i write and share these two resentments, i will be unable to let them go. i guess that is what my sponsor is for, to help me find a path to sanity, in the face of these daily assaults on the actual truth. my job today, is to write them out and see where that process takes me. now i know why one of he men i sponsor is having so many issues at releasing the resentment that is preventing him from moving on. this process will allow me to be a better sponsor and perhaps suggest a path for him, like me, to move forward out of darkness of carrying he burden of resentments. just for today, i will write and see what is uncovered.
∞ DT ∞