โ my insanity had finally risen higher than my wall of denial, forcing me to get honest about my disease โ
Posted: Sat, Jul 18, 2009 10:09:00 AM
i had received the gift of desperation and, as a result, was able to accept the spiritual principles that makes it possible for me to recover. okay i have worked all i can, until someone gives me a hand, which may not happen today, so i am taking that to mean that the time is coming to shower and head out into this day.
anyhow, as i ponder the nature of my desperation when i first got clean, and compare it with the desperation i feel today, it is amazing what has changed. yes i am still desperate today, at least desperate to keep doing what i have been doing since i first got clean, you know pray, go to meetings and work steps with a sponsor. i may not be actually be writing a step right now, that does not mean i am not working a step. i am working on letting whatever needs to happen, happen.
instead of going on and on about nothing, i do believe i will sign-off and go join the family activity that is about to commence.
anyhow, as i ponder the nature of my desperation when i first got clean, and compare it with the desperation i feel today, it is amazing what has changed. yes i am still desperate today, at least desperate to keep doing what i have been doing since i first got clean, you know pray, go to meetings and work steps with a sponsor. i may not be actually be writing a step right now, that does not mean i am not working a step. i am working on letting whatever needs to happen, happen.
instead of going on and on about nothing, i do believe i will sign-off and go join the family activity that is about to commence.
∞ DT ∞