โ the importance of how great things could or should be for me disappears โ
Posted: Thu, Oct 29, 2009 09:51:39 AM
in the light of recovery, i perceive the difference between fantasy and reality. well the reality over the past few days has been snow, ice, cold and reloading a new OS and all my apps. finally the walks are shoveled, this computer is running better than ever and i am finally able to concentrate on the here and now.
i do GET what this reading is telling me today, that it is in my nature to dwell on any time but right now. the past can be a nightmare or can be glory days, depending on my attitude. the future can be dark and gloomy or the brightest of all mt fantasies come true, once again depending on the filters through which i am viewing through. all of that is irrelevant in a life centered in the spiritual principles of recovery.as i have worked a few step cycles, my past has been put into perspective, it is a tool and a well of experience from which i can draw events and experiences to help me help another addict. the steps have also taught me that i CAN allow a POWER GREATER than me to care for my life, and BE present for what i am being told to do in the here and now. you know, the whole do the next right thing gig. if i surrender those facts of life in recovery, i can have realistic drams of my future and set achievable goals based on those dreams.
all of that is very nice, BUT when i am in the thick of looking back or looking forward, it is hard for me to remember where the real center is today, right here and right now, this last step cycle has awakened in me the ability to be present for what is occurring inside and outside of me, BUT like any new skill, it takes more than a bit of practice to achieve. so going with that theme it is time to jump in the shower and get back to work, as my friend Joe T is apt to say, it is a good day to be in recovery.
i do GET what this reading is telling me today, that it is in my nature to dwell on any time but right now. the past can be a nightmare or can be glory days, depending on my attitude. the future can be dark and gloomy or the brightest of all mt fantasies come true, once again depending on the filters through which i am viewing through. all of that is irrelevant in a life centered in the spiritual principles of recovery.as i have worked a few step cycles, my past has been put into perspective, it is a tool and a well of experience from which i can draw events and experiences to help me help another addict. the steps have also taught me that i CAN allow a POWER GREATER than me to care for my life, and BE present for what i am being told to do in the here and now. you know, the whole do the next right thing gig. if i surrender those facts of life in recovery, i can have realistic drams of my future and set achievable goals based on those dreams.
all of that is very nice, BUT when i am in the thick of looking back or looking forward, it is hard for me to remember where the real center is today, right here and right now, this last step cycle has awakened in me the ability to be present for what is occurring inside and outside of me, BUT like any new skill, it takes more than a bit of practice to achieve. so going with that theme it is time to jump in the shower and get back to work, as my friend Joe T is apt to say, it is a good day to be in recovery.
∞ DT ∞