โ i stand for something โ
Posted: Fri, Oct 19, 2012 07:58:02 AM
my strength is the result of living my values. i could cut the cheese to go with my fine whine about what happens next in my morning, but instead i will just sigh and move on.
standing for something, anything. i can say even in often addiction i stood for a lot of things, especially what i thought were political, social and cultural truths. when it came to using, however, i had no values. in fact most of my life was a valueless drift through a sea of apathetic self-interest. as sad and harsh as it sounds, i never realized how bleak and barren that world was, until i finally came to recovery, accepted that i was an addict and decided to do something. that point was not on the day i got clean. that point was not on the day i finally reached the fellowship where i belonged without any accommodation to the archaic and inappropriate language of the literature. no that day was not until i worked my second first step and realized how much i was missing. yes that was the start of my journey back towards values and not just opinions that were convenient and shifted based on where i was. even then, that journey only started, and it was years before i could actually wake up and start to live a program of recovery in the here and now. perhaps, i am unique in this, as socially i am awkward and have always been a very slow learner. perhaps, there are more like me. it really does not matter, what matters is today, political, social and cultural truths have been superseded by a set of values based upon the 12 steps of the fellowship that has brought me from my knees at the altar of active addiction.
anyhow, i want to get home before eight o'clock tonight, so i think i will sign off and say, that yes i stand for a lot of things and one of those things is giving my employers fair value for their money, with that in mind,, it is off to work i go!
standing for something, anything. i can say even in often addiction i stood for a lot of things, especially what i thought were political, social and cultural truths. when it came to using, however, i had no values. in fact most of my life was a valueless drift through a sea of apathetic self-interest. as sad and harsh as it sounds, i never realized how bleak and barren that world was, until i finally came to recovery, accepted that i was an addict and decided to do something. that point was not on the day i got clean. that point was not on the day i finally reached the fellowship where i belonged without any accommodation to the archaic and inappropriate language of the literature. no that day was not until i worked my second first step and realized how much i was missing. yes that was the start of my journey back towards values and not just opinions that were convenient and shifted based on where i was. even then, that journey only started, and it was years before i could actually wake up and start to live a program of recovery in the here and now. perhaps, i am unique in this, as socially i am awkward and have always been a very slow learner. perhaps, there are more like me. it really does not matter, what matters is today, political, social and cultural truths have been superseded by a set of values based upon the 12 steps of the fellowship that has brought me from my knees at the altar of active addiction.
anyhow, i want to get home before eight o'clock tonight, so i think i will sign off and say, that yes i stand for a lot of things and one of those things is giving my employers fair value for their money, with that in mind,, it is off to work i go!
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