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comes from a FAITH in a Higher Power, the belief that all will be well.
this has already been a very full morning, of what promises to be a very full day. i have accomplished almost everything i set out to do today, and that last task is coming up in just a few minutes, immediately following this little semi-random brain dump.
the reading spoke about a relationship i never thought i would have active in my life after all…
yes i could go on about that, however this morning i CHOOSE not to. i could also go on about how this relationship has evolved over time, been there done that as well. no, right now, what i hear in my head and my heart is time to talk about what this relationship, the relationship i have with the POWER that fuels my recovery, is like today. i am not a spiritual guru, as my friends, acquaintances and peers can attest to. nor am i some sort of GOD guy that walks around in awe of the mystery of life. i do not believe that everything happens for some cosmic reason beyond my ken, nor do i dismiss the events i judge as “bad” as being part of GOD's plan. those events: good, bad or indifferent are just that in my head events. many of them are just outcomes of the decisions others make, others are the consequences of a history of bad decisions made individually as well as collectively by the human race. what it boils down to, is that events are events and i judge them good or bad,m by how they affect the quality of my life. going any deeper than that, brings me to a place i am very uncomfortable with, namely trying to discern what the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery, is for me in the long run, other than for me to stay clean today, no matter what. would i like to ponder more and contemplate the real meaning of it all? not really, i was once that sort of person, who needed all the whys and wherefores, to proceed with my day. today, i have surrendered to the fact that all that i know, is but a drop in the bucket of knowledge, and wisdom for me, is to take what i know and what i learn today and put it into application in my life. part of putting that task, is allowing the POWER that fuels my recovery to give me glimpses into what ITs will for me, is today. i do that by being present and doing the next right thing, and YES, following my intuition, as across the course of my recovery, that has been restored to a much more sane state than it was when i came to the rooms. anyhow, it is time to shower off, suit up, and get cranking on my work for today, or better put get back to doing the work i have today. it is a good day to be a junior partner in a relationship with a POWER stronger than the part of me i call addiction.

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