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that everyone in the room is watching me, judging me, and condemning me. as my thoughts have been centered on those who are on the margins lately, it is ironic that their biggest and whiny argument, is just an expression of self-obsession. when i ponder that notion a bit deeper, it is one of those “DOH” moments. of course it is self-obsession, even when i heard that come out of the mouth the other night when they were talking i really love that they can believe that everyone is judging them but lack the cajones to ask any one of their friends what we just might be thinking. time ans again, as i hear this refrain from the edge cases i have wondered what a good counter may be, other than the reference to a gallery of sinners.
which brings me to the other notion on my mind. yes, TV and media starts have the right to say anything they desire. when they do so publicly, their employers also have the right to terminate them as the “face” of their product. it really is that simple. why the conservatives are so up in arms about an employer exercising their rights through a business decision, based on one of their employees exercising their First Amendment Right, really is beyond amazing to me. i thought conservatives believed in less government, i would bet that if someone came out as being gay, on FOX NEWS, and got fired for doing so publicly, Sarah Plain, et al, would loudly applaud that action. it seems that freedom to make a business decision only counts when it suits the purpose of the ever diminishing but ever more shrill Christian Conservative movement. no matter how loud they scream, they are an anachronism, that is losing a demographic battle, as intolerance, and bigotry is slowly dying as institutions. just as they believe that this inexorable march to obscurity is some sort of attack, they constantly do all they can to detract from gaining more support from the vast majority of the population. the understanding they lack, is the same in the self-centered and self-obsessed addict,. their addiction to to power and as that power is eroding away, they scream and make excuses.
i get thinking that the world revolves around me. i may be at the center of the universe, but that hardly means that all that is, revolves around me. everyone is NOT judging me,. everyone is NOT stripping me of my power, bit by bit. and most importantly when it comes to the rooms, everyone is NOT out to get me. in fact, hardly anyone pays very much attention to me, and that is a good thing. i get the bruising one's ego takes when they fall from the pedestal they so carefully constructed and maintained. as one who has fallen, it is so much nicer being among the unwashed masses that teem with life, than above them all. it is nice to be one of many, instead of a shining star, and once my ego accepted that, all of a sudden i have people that actually want to spend time with me. i could whine and complain about the inequality of it all. i can hide in the weeds, keeping my clean date a state secret, so i can look better than i am. or i can pitch all of that, admit that i am powerless over addiction and take STEP ZERO, making the decision to become a member, rather than sit on the fringes. who knows, i might actually makes some progress when i become a peer and stop judging myself through the eyes of others. i am however, grateful today that i see the fallacy in the argument that everyone is judging me, and now i can pack up, shower off and head to work.

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