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Tue, Dec 20, 2016 12:14:25 PM
☻ self-obsession ☺
posted: Tue, Dec 20, 2016 12:14:25 PM
Or lack thereof! I know that I write about this topic often, and as a result have written far too much about how self-obsessed I was and how selfless I have become. In fact I also play. Am quite sure I have written about scientifically I can prove that I DO view everything from the center of the universe.. Sitting here in the tropical sun off of Tobago Cays I wonder exactly what is it I can write that is new, different and pitchy this morning and have arrived at some sort of jumping off point.
Digging deeper, I feel that more I can be selfless and go with the flow, allowing others to guide me from without band lead me in directions I would not go on my own power. Today, I have the desire to go ashore and frolic, yes frolic is the perfect verb here, in the sand and surf. The ride will be bumpy and fraught with sea spray. What is holding me bulk is that I do not want to do it by myself. I certainly could work my wiles and manipulate my partner in crime to brave the ride and come for the day in the sand, BUT, I am better than that, just for today, anyhow. What will probably happen is that I will sit on the deck for a bit, enjoying the tropical breezes and sunshine and head on over in a little bit, there is at least an adventure or two waiting for me after lunch. For now I will be be content, sitting on the deck, watching the clouds roll by and listening to the Mozart hits, playing in the background. Ironically being present for doing nothing is one of the hardest tasks of my day.
What may or may not happen is yet to be determined , I do know however, that I will feel my way to the next right thing.
Digging deeper, I feel that more I can be selfless and go with the flow, allowing others to guide me from without band lead me in directions I would not go on my own power. Today, I have the desire to go ashore and frolic, yes frolic is the perfect verb here, in the sand and surf. The ride will be bumpy and fraught with sea spray. What is holding me bulk is that I do not want to do it by myself. I certainly could work my wiles and manipulate my partner in crime to brave the ride and come for the day in the sand, BUT, I am better than that, just for today, anyhow. What will probably happen is that I will sit on the deck for a bit, enjoying the tropical breezes and sunshine and head on over in a little bit, there is at least an adventure or two waiting for me after lunch. For now I will be be content, sitting on the deck, watching the clouds roll by and listening to the Mozart hits, playing in the background. Ironically being present for doing nothing is one of the hardest tasks of my day.
What may or may not happen is yet to be determined , I do know however, that I will feel my way to the next right thing.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
Another Look!
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
3) The sage has in the world an appearance of indecision, and keeps
his mind in a state of indifference to all. The people all keep their
eyes and ears directed to him, and he deals with them all as his children.