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my peers in the fellowship, my family, my employer and if time allows the world in general, is not something i ever stop and think about on any sort of regular basis, if ever. it just has become something i do, automagically and coming from a place where i expected and believed i was entitled to be served by all of the above, it is quite a leap to be where i am today. i want to be a part of something greater and i have the desire to be something greater, even though i am perfectly content with who and what i am today. i know that may sound as if i am saying one thing and wishing for another, but when i consider where i am right now and see where i could be going, i am moving with FAITH that the next right thing will be revealed as i walk through this day.
so i really do not want to work today, in fact i would love to just step back and play computer games, smoke cigars, eat ice cream and generally be a lazy slob. i may have the desire to do all of that, BUT, i have a bit of integrity today and since i am being paid to work, i will work. the days of ripping off my employer because i literally had nothing to of, are long gone and would wear me down very quickly. in fact one of the questions i ask myself every night is did i give my employer what they paid me for? tonight it is going to be yes sir i did, as i am not going sink to my lowest common denominator and pretend i am working.
on that note, it is time to pack up my work stuff, head over to the cigar store with a few errands along the way, and get my two hours of working while not inhaling under my belt. it is a good day to be present and take whatever opportunities i see to serve those around me. it is a better day to stay clean and walk in the FAITH that everything is going to be okay, if i get out of the way and let it happen of its own accord. just for today.

∞ DT ∞