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first off, i want to apologize to all my faithful readers about the messed up RSS feed, i was trying to add something new and paid no attention to where i was testing at. hopefully that little bug has been worked out or there will be some ’splaining to do!
well, i could go on and on about how self-centered i am, or regale you with tales of my self-centeredness in action even after coming to recovery or i can just write what is on my mind this morning.
HMMMMMMM.......
first off, i am writing this in my pj's after sleeping in this morning, it seems one of the people who pay me for doing what i do, has decided that the original deadline was not soon enough, so the martyr that i am, i took the next couple of days off from my full-time gig to fulfill her wishes -- WAHHHH! not really, i love working from home, dirty, slimy and in my pj's and if i could figure out a way to support myself from home i would be doing this all the time.
but alas, i am just a wage slave and need my fulltime gig. and that kind of goes to the reading. i could always choose to quit my job and sit around in my pj's all day, and not care one whit whether my creditors ever got a dime again, or whether i paid my share of the costs to run my home, responsibility is one of those spiritual principles that runs counter to self-centeredness, and today i do understand that the world does not revolve around me. that means i need to find a manner of living that allows me to be more that the selfish self-centered person the part of me i call my disease would have me be. i want to give something back today, instead of taking an ever increasing portion of what is offered. and the only way i know how to do that is to live the program of recovery that has given me this new perspective.
so what is this addict to do? work the step i happen to be stalled on, meet with my sponsor and do my best to bring my HIGHER POWER into the equation today!

∞ DT ∞