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going gets tough, i have the ways and means to deal with it, thanks to a program of recovery that has brought me to this place. the past year has been one HUGE roller-coaster of times that brought joy, wonder, anxiety, grief, challenges and growth to my life. as i start my second job hunt in less than a year and deal with the inundation of calls and e-mails this morning, i have to be grateful that i just may be able to make this work, before i have to dip into my savings. the beginning of the end for my Dad had already started and his insistence that he was “fine,” just hurting from his fall, allowed me to overlook what was really happening with him. his broken hip and the complications with his surgery, brought him to his knees and when his end came, i was glad i was there, although i was remorseful over not getting him in sooner to have his hip looked at. i heard and saw what i wanted to, and ignored what i knew in my heart i needed to do.
this morning, i actually had to put my phone into Do Not Disturb mode, so i could get the time to get my day started. i do not remember my job hunt starting off so frenzied a year ago, but i will have to figure out the means to set a boundary, so i have time in the morning to get into my day and work out, time to get to a meeting and time to enhance my skills. i can say that this morning, i am not doing so well at that. i am going to get out of the house and get some miles under my belt. i am going to get to a meeting at Noon today and i am going to get over to my Mom's house to take care of what needs to be taken care of. i may or may not get the chance to do any training today, but i will certainly eke out a few minutes just for me and my lovely partner in crime, as it were.
with all of that, now down on “paper i need to get out and get it done. my life today, is too short not to take advantage of this free time. i want o find a job, but it would be nice not to have one tomorrow.

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