🤯 seeing my behavior 👀
Posted: Wed, Jul 30, 2025 10:41:42 AM
more clearly, and act differently when it is called for, even when i think i am right. yes, when i open my mind and am present to what i am being told and how others are reacting to me, i get the insight into myself that i lacked for decades on end. even after a minute clean, my old and very familiar, less than stellar behavior can surface and cause chaos and discontent in my life. i still want what i want, right now, DAMMIT ALL! as i sit here in the cigar store, without my morning pick me up, i can my brain going about the possible job offer that i received this morning. i am still not sure if it is legit and before giving them any more personal identifying information, i will need to do a bit of due diligence, as it seems too good to be true. the one thing i am sure about, is that yes, i want to jump, but that sort of behavior got my thirty thousand dollars in debt, and that is an action i do not wish to repeat.
i am, however, approaching this phase in my life with an open mind, and as a result, i am looking at other sorts of ways to generate an income. life in my skin is not all that bad today and so far i have made it through this day, without any pain and suffering, even though i almost T-boned a Lexis SUV that failed to stop and yield right of way. i am glad i was not thinking about what i needed to buy at the grocery store and was paying attention. the accident, if it happened, would have been her fault and a new car would have been in my future, even though my current car is working well and gets me efficiently and reliably to where i am going. yes i called her a name or three, out loud, and had the strong desire to flip her off. i realize now that she was oblivious to what was going on, and it would have been a waste of my time, bandwidth and emotional balance. yes i might have felt better but to what end?
i guess i can say that i will approach what i have to do today with an open mind and see what comes of it. i can be kind, respectful and courteous without being a doormat today. time to toddle off to my next task and figure out whether or not i am getting scammed or if the offer is legit. just for today, i can allow myself the freedom to be a bit skeptical even with an open mind.
i am, however, approaching this phase in my life with an open mind, and as a result, i am looking at other sorts of ways to generate an income. life in my skin is not all that bad today and so far i have made it through this day, without any pain and suffering, even though i almost T-boned a Lexis SUV that failed to stop and yield right of way. i am glad i was not thinking about what i needed to buy at the grocery store and was paying attention. the accident, if it happened, would have been her fault and a new car would have been in my future, even though my current car is working well and gets me efficiently and reliably to where i am going. yes i called her a name or three, out loud, and had the strong desire to flip her off. i realize now that she was oblivious to what was going on, and it would have been a waste of my time, bandwidth and emotional balance. yes i might have felt better but to what end?
i guess i can say that i will approach what i have to do today with an open mind and see what comes of it. i can be kind, respectful and courteous without being a doormat today. time to toddle off to my next task and figure out whether or not i am getting scammed or if the offer is legit. just for today, i can allow myself the freedom to be a bit skeptical even with an open mind.
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