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meet bad behavior with less than stellar behavior myself, HOWEVER when i meet it with love and compassion instead, i create an opportunity for recovery. when i came to recovery, i was the type f person who did not take shit from anyone, disrespect me and i would hammer you down with my insulting and very sharp tongue. bump me, and i would push you down. i am sure that what i am trying to say is obvious, when i was pushed, i pushed back with much greater force. so he idea of dealing with those who were in my way, or were behaving badly with love an compassion was not a thought that popped into my head. even if i was not reacting, i would respond in kind.
i was not an instant convert to the notion of countering less than stellar behavior in others, with anything close to love and compassion. even these days, even with a minute clean, i can feel my anger rising and my desire to pound someone into sand, starting to take over. i have to remember what i tell the men i sponsor, who have worked the SEVENTH STEP: pause, take a breath and consider whether or not this situation is worthy of possibly doing an amends in real time or at least the near future. ninety-nine times out of one hundred, running it through that filter, leads to at least tolerance if not love and compassion, after all, i really do not know what it going on under their skin. i know that when i am an asshole, the last thing i want or need, is for someone to get up in my face about how i am behaving. in those situations, i always escalate and <BOOM> before i know it, i have done something that will require an admission of me being wrong and as i have said in the past, i hate to admit i was wrong!
i do have some work to get done, so i guess i will close out with just for today, i will strive to use love and compassion, rather than anger, resentment and insults, to respond to situations that are far from ideal.

∞ DT ∞