Some memes

risky business, and things do not always work out in my favor. being courageous was never in my wheelhouse. i might have acted as if i was fearless and engage in all sorts of risky business. but when it came to relationships and standing up for something, i ran the other way. living under the lie that i was too broken and not worthy to be seen as a real person, infected all of my life and as a result i lived in abject fear of being revealed. what i have learned in recovery is that my choice to believe that lie and live outside of the real world, always looking in, is not a healthy manner to live and one that i no longer have to accept as my reality.
this morning, as i adapt to my new world, i feel a bit rushed and certainly not ready to face the world. i do have places to go, choices to make and things i have committed to accomplish. the end result is that i have run out of time to write about the courage to face life and accept whatever comes my way. i am willing to be okay with making a plan and doing the footwork, even it means taking a risk with my feelings or relationships. i know i will get what i need to survive and live in the FAITH that no matter what i can stay clean, just for today

∞ DT ∞