๐คจ whatever happens ๐คฆ
Posted: Fri, Oct 2, 2026 09:12:32 AM
today, i will practice loosening my grip on results. i will freely admit that i am not a god-centered, god-aware or godly person, in fact the whole deist argument is one i avoid in all my affairs. that outlook is one that has confused the men i sponsor and some of my peers, that given my spiritual path, how can i possible work STEPS THREE and ELEVEN. what they do not understand is that i do not believe i have power over addiction and that on a daily basis i ask the POWER that fuels my recovery, to provide the opportunities to get everything i need each day. i do not think that those opportunities come rain down on me as some sort of manna from heaven. no i believe i have to be awake and present to what is happening in the real world to recognize and exercise them. the POWER that fuels my recovery is just that, no human attributes, no definition, and certainly no intelligence caring about me on a personal level, it simply is and it is up to me access that POWER.
that changes the THIRD STEP for me, i have to let go, and seek the answers through channel other than my own will and knowledge. those answers come through my interactions with others, what i feel and <GASP> the events that surround my daily life. to get to the core of my source material, i have to TRUST that if i do my part, i will get what i need and sometimes what i want as well. unfortunately, none of that comes gift wrapped or with huge neon signs and trumpets announcing their availability. fortunately, none of that is hidden in cryptic language or dogma either. it is, as the saying goes, hiding right in front of me, all i have to do is open myself to the possibilities.
there are times however, where i have to persevere and push through the fog. my whole experience with Black Rifle Coffee Company, just happened to be one of those. after multiple e-mails and me finally getting frustrated enough to say i was going to initiate a charge back, they finally refunded my payment for the product and kept the shipping fee. i can say that i was treated as if i did something wrong and even their final “apology” sounded more like get the fuck out of here and leave me alone, rather than anything sincere. no matter how i pushed back, it was always my fault and i was lucky to be getting anything. i am still tempted to e-mail the C-suite and complain and perhaps i will. the only thing stopping me, is that Christine was probably following company policy and the only way i was going to get my money back was to keep pushing. what i did not get is: “perhaps we need to look at the process that caused the issue and make corrections.” what i got is “sorry for the inconvenience and please consider donating the product we will not let you return.” the kicker is, i have bought their product in the past. i have enjoyed the product and might have become a very loyal repeat customer, had my issue been handled with grace and respect. now, i probably will not come anywhere near their product for a very long time, as the experience has left a bitter taste in my mouth. the lesson i was taught, is that when i am facing the public, i need to listen to what they are asking for and with as much grace and respect as i can muster, treat their issue as mine. i have to “own” and do my best to work within the constraints of what i am allowed to resolve their issue. opening my eyes to how treat my customers, is not a bad thing, being on the receiving end of disrespect and victim-blaming reminds me that i am the face of my store and how i speak, what i say and how i act is always advertising the company for which i work. if i want repeat customers i have to make them feel welcomed and heard. most of all trusting myself to the lesson i was given, came for the same POWER that fuels my recovery, even if it sucked to be caught in its death grip.
that changes the THIRD STEP for me, i have to let go, and seek the answers through channel other than my own will and knowledge. those answers come through my interactions with others, what i feel and <GASP> the events that surround my daily life. to get to the core of my source material, i have to TRUST that if i do my part, i will get what i need and sometimes what i want as well. unfortunately, none of that comes gift wrapped or with huge neon signs and trumpets announcing their availability. fortunately, none of that is hidden in cryptic language or dogma either. it is, as the saying goes, hiding right in front of me, all i have to do is open myself to the possibilities.
there are times however, where i have to persevere and push through the fog. my whole experience with Black Rifle Coffee Company, just happened to be one of those. after multiple e-mails and me finally getting frustrated enough to say i was going to initiate a charge back, they finally refunded my payment for the product and kept the shipping fee. i can say that i was treated as if i did something wrong and even their final “apology” sounded more like get the fuck out of here and leave me alone, rather than anything sincere. no matter how i pushed back, it was always my fault and i was lucky to be getting anything. i am still tempted to e-mail the C-suite and complain and perhaps i will. the only thing stopping me, is that Christine was probably following company policy and the only way i was going to get my money back was to keep pushing. what i did not get is: “perhaps we need to look at the process that caused the issue and make corrections.” what i got is “sorry for the inconvenience and please consider donating the product we will not let you return.” the kicker is, i have bought their product in the past. i have enjoyed the product and might have become a very loyal repeat customer, had my issue been handled with grace and respect. now, i probably will not come anywhere near their product for a very long time, as the experience has left a bitter taste in my mouth. the lesson i was taught, is that when i am facing the public, i need to listen to what they are asking for and with as much grace and respect as i can muster, treat their issue as mine. i have to “own” and do my best to work within the constraints of what i am allowed to resolve their issue. opening my eyes to how treat my customers, is not a bad thing, being on the receiving end of disrespect and victim-blaming reminds me that i am the face of my store and how i speak, what i say and how i act is always advertising the company for which i work. if i want repeat customers i have to make them feel welcomed and heard. most of all trusting myself to the lesson i was given, came for the same POWER that fuels my recovery, even if it sucked to be caught in its death grip.
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