Some memes

to see a way forward when i am standing in my own way, i will let my peers show me how to step aside and find a way out. the problem with standing in my own way, is that i am not the one who sees it. it often takes one or more of my friends or peers to say DUDE, WTF!? one of the things that has come up during the past few days has been resolved and yes i had a part in it. i m going to send the e-mail to Black Rifle Coffee Company letting them know how they could have turned a customer who made an honest mistake and got trapped in the company's AI black hole, into a loyal repeat customer rather than an angry hater. during my run this morning i made the decision to do just that. my co-worker's suspension? well, i had a part in that as well. he demonstrated complete lack of understanding that crossed the border into sexual harassment. my female co-worker was going to blow it off and i said i had been in corporate america long enough to see that for what it was and at a minimum, she needed to tell him that made her uncomfortable, or go to HR. well she took the middle route and reported it to our manager, hence the suspension and investigation. this is certainly a situation where there is absolutely no benefit of a doubt, as the subject of his part of the conversation was certainly NSFW and needed to be addressed. i am unsure why anyone would think that was appropriate topic of conversation in the workplace, but i am not in his head and what he thinks and does, stymies me every time i try and wrap my head around it. i may not have liked to work with him and i am ambivalent as to his fate, but the problem is, he is not well-liked and any benefit of the doubt will be hard to come by.
where am i standing in my own way here? well certainly not in my botched coffee cancellation or in what i told my female co-worker. i have completed my FOURTH STEP and i am not living in an angsty world as i wait for my appointment to share my FIFTH STEP, which is certainly new and different. i have no remorse over standing up for myself against a corporate bully, nor telling someone that i work with, that they did not have to sit on their hands and accept what came their way. i also have no remorse telling someone who is a drain on me, that i lacked the time to take his call this week. i stand by each and every one of those decisions and see that is certainly part of treating myself with the kindness i treat others. perhaps the FIFTH STEP is already working me over.🤣
where is the HOPE? for me, today and just for today, the HOPE lies in the fact that i do not see myself as weak and feeble as my actions of the past week have demonstrated. i stood up for myself and advised someone else to stand up for herself. i am ready to hit the dusty trail, get a bit of cigar smoke and football under my belt and leave the rest of the world to spin as it will. it is a good day to have the HOPE that i am not nearly as broken as i have told myself i am and seek evidence to back up that claim.

∞ DT ∞