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my fellow members know more about my personal life than anyone has ever known before, and what they do not know, they will probably imagine.
the point i got about this reading, is that no matter what group of humans i go to, gossip follows, and if i allow myself to be distracted by gossip, either participating in it, or avoiding the fellowship because i am afraid of it, i find myself in a whole lot of trouble, spiritually anyways. so what is this addict to do? well, i could whine and complain about being the object of other people’s conversation. i could revel in the power i have, that others find the need to talk about me. or i could take the spiritual middle and accept it for what it is, just the behavior of any group of human beings, sick or health and ignore it. honestly, that is a lot harder than it sounds. i want to be well-liked and respected, but when i decline to participate in gossip, or let it roll off my back, it adds to the aura of aloofness that i have built around myself.
the trick for me, is to be more open in my personal relationships, allow myself to be warmer, and let the results be the results. it amazes me some days how my behavior is interpreted by others, and the flip side of that coin is how interpret the behavior of others. then of course, how i speak of them after my little spin on their lives, is not the spiritual path either.
so what do i take away from my pondering this morning? well, i am only as sick as my behaviors, by finding the spiritual path, and doing my best to live according to that way, i will continue to grow and get better. if i want to stop gossip about me, i need to stop gossip about others and set the example that there is more than enough other topics to shoot the sh!t about.

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