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people talk, that is a fact, whenever they get into groups that spend anytime together, they talk and yes gossip happens. it does not matter how spiritual or evolved the members of that group are, they gossip. as gossip and talking is part of the human condition, it is ironic that many in fellowship, including me get so upset when they are the object of conversation, the “flavor of the moment,” as it were. with that as a prelude, what i felt this morning was IF i accept myself, just as i am, right here and right now,, the idle chatter about me, need not burden me at all. i am no spiritual giant and do dumb things and behave in a less than stellar manner, and often in front of God and everyone, so just by being me, i can provide plenty of fodder for the gossip mill. with that as a fact, i can see how i feel about what is being said about, can provide me insight into my spiritual condition. as Dave Edmunds once said: “There are some things you can't cover up with lipstick and powder.”
yes, my reaction\\s to what i hear about me is certainly a great yardstick of my spiritual fitness, as when i am all accepting and tolerant of myself, that sort of stuff is just part of the background of social white noise, when i am not, it is more akin to standing next to a jet engine that is being revved up. of course, it would have probably gone without saying, that when i am spiritually fit, i probably provide less to be gossiped about, that however is a topic for another day.
moving into how i am feeling about myself, i can actually say, that when i am in a good spot, what others may say about me, behind my back or otherwise, does not matter. i know who i am at those times and accept myself because of my faults, defects and imperfections, not despite them. in those times i am comfortable in my own s\\kin, and more and more, i get to feel that way, every day that passes, when i am practicing a program of active recovery.
ironically even though i have time this morning, i have run out of things to say. so i guess i will get rolling down the highway to my next destination, and let them say what they will.

∞ DT ∞