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i was at a meeting last night and another member shared about having periodic crises in FAITH. the concept of crisis in FAITH is one i have yet to explore and one which i do not understand. ever since i grew my first spark of FAITH, i have allowed it to grow or stagnate, but never doubted the existence or the care of a POWER GREATER than me.
i do have trouble with some aspects of my FAITH, namely trusting that GOD will take care of things the way I WANT them. i build expectations about outcomes, the get angry or resentful at GOD when the outcomes are not what i desired.
some may say that this in itself is a crisis in FAITH, but i never doubt anymore, i do however question, scheme and manipulate situations over which i really have no power and whine when i end up once again with egg on my face.
practicing my program on a daily basis has started to open my eyes to the fact that my 3rd Step decision is less than stellar and i still cling tightly on to things that i feel somehow i am incapable of trusting GOD to handle, so as i continue down this path, i will do my best to let go, trust GOD and let my FAITH grow.
-- DT --