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with the POWER that fuels my recovery is a task i take quite seriously. thee whole of **care** however is something i have more than a little issue with, even though i have FAITH that by paying attention to what is going on around me, i will get everything i need. it is true that over the past two years my life has been quite the roller-coaster ride. it is also true that i have survived that ride without using or burning my life down. if i were more of a GOD kind of guy, that could be used as evidence that i am safely ensconced in the care of a HIGHER POWER. i see it as evidence in my FAITH in the recovery program that has brought me this far, the work i do to live that program actively in my everyday life and the opportunities provided to me by the POWER that fuels my recovery. the whole chanting for what one wants, visualizing outcomes or praying for stuff, just does fit into how i see myself, although it would be nice to win the lottery, like manna from heaven. that does not mean i need to judge or disparage my peers for their beliefs. looking down my nose at how others choose to walk their spiritual path, is no longer how i choose to live. HOWEVER, when i take a peek outside of the recovery community and see those who loudly proclaim their FAITH and their religion, acting with cruelty, hatred and intolerance, i have to wonder what path they are truly choosing to follow.
this morning, as i look out my window, i see that it is a day for an inside workout. as much as i treasure getting outside for fresh air and sunshine, trekking through the snow and cold is not high on my list of desirable activities for this day. i do however, need to get my blood flowing and my heart-pumping and this morning it looks like a day on the treadmill, climbing some hills. so i will get dressed out, take the garbage bin to the curb and drive on over the the Rec Center. i am confident that is all part of the next correct thing to do, and i will allow myself the freedom to listen for what comes after that activity has been completed.

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