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effects in my life by applying the principles of the recovery, once i decided to stop being so f*cking different and admitting that i was an addict and NEEDED some direction in my life, unless i wanted to be a revolving door, repeat offender. i was so sure that i **knew** what i needed to live my life, that this whole HIGHER POWER thing was a concept i could “skip” or just pretend to have one that “looked” like the one my peers shared about. my obdurate attitude was part of the reason it took fifteen years to find a spiritual path that actually fit me. after all, i had the greatest desire to “conform” to the concept of a HIGHER POWER that my peers had, and my FEAR of being found as “different” consumed me.
all of that is now history and as i shared with one of the men i sponsor the other day, i had to come to an accommodation with my spiritual path and the concept of a loving caring HIGHER POWER that can and will provide what i NEED. it ended up being a matter of perspective and once that tectonic shift occurred, i wondered why i spent so much time and effort “overthinking” and worrying about what was and what is. this morning, as i prepare to get out and about and ignore the annual feeding frenzy of unabashed consumerism, i am quite certain that a HIGHER POWER is taking care of me and that if i practice some patience and tolerance i will arrive at home, intact and better off for what i accomplish today.

∞ DT ∞