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Fri, Feb 27, 2015 07:46:30 AM
¿ **PURE** motives ?
posted: Fri, Feb 27, 2015 07:46:30 AM
seriously, unless i was Mother Theresa, the Dali Lama, or maybe Pope Francis I, none of my motives are absolutely pure, and i certainly would love a reading that told me to go back to bed, if that was the case. i however, live in the real world, and as far as i can see none of my motives for anything i do are pure.
when i look at it, even staying clean has a payoff for me, beyond the reward of not being pwned by dope. speaking of which, before i forget:
so what is my motive for staying clean today? it does bear repeating that life without being pwned by dope is quite a payoff. i get to not only look better than ever, but i also feel better. i have relationships, i have a means of supporting myself that i like and i am becoming: whole, genuine and self-aware. not a whole lot of movement away from me, in those motives. society also gets a huge payoff, as i am no longer a burden on the justice system or social services. i perform a useful service to society, that i would have never been able to do, had i not been forcefully placed onto this path of recovery. just like shoveling the snow from my walk, serving the fellowship in the manner i do, sponsoring men in the program, all of them are for selfish reasons, but each has component, a large component which falls back towards altruism and my desire to make the world a bit brighter and less scary, one addict at a time.
i GOT clean to remove a legal problem; i stuck around so i could continue to look better than i was feeling and today i stay clean because i enjoy reaping the benefits of another day clean, and the world, in a very small way, is a better place because of my desire to stay clean today and work a program of active recovery.
do i have any “pure” motives? probably not, i am after all another human being, not some saint, spiritual guru or someone with a link to the divine. that does not mean that i do nothing. i live my life by the precepts of the program that keeps me clean and for the most part i GET to do the next right thing, which right here and right now is to set-up my home office and get ready to work. a very short commute today!
when i look at it, even staying clean has a payoff for me, beyond the reward of not being pwned by dope. speaking of which, before i forget:
Derek W
CONGRATS on 8 years Clean.
It has been quite the year for you
i'm glad you saw it through.
so what is my motive for staying clean today? it does bear repeating that life without being pwned by dope is quite a payoff. i get to not only look better than ever, but i also feel better. i have relationships, i have a means of supporting myself that i like and i am becoming: whole, genuine and self-aware. not a whole lot of movement away from me, in those motives. society also gets a huge payoff, as i am no longer a burden on the justice system or social services. i perform a useful service to society, that i would have never been able to do, had i not been forcefully placed onto this path of recovery. just like shoveling the snow from my walk, serving the fellowship in the manner i do, sponsoring men in the program, all of them are for selfish reasons, but each has component, a large component which falls back towards altruism and my desire to make the world a bit brighter and less scary, one addict at a time.
i GOT clean to remove a legal problem; i stuck around so i could continue to look better than i was feeling and today i stay clean because i enjoy reaping the benefits of another day clean, and the world, in a very small way, is a better place because of my desire to stay clean today and work a program of active recovery.
do i have any “pure” motives? probably not, i am after all another human being, not some saint, spiritual guru or someone with a link to the divine. that does not mean that i do nothing. i live my life by the precepts of the program that keeps me clean and for the most part i GET to do the next right thing, which right here and right now is to set-up my home office and get ready to work. a very short commute today!
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
2) When gold and jade fill the hall, their possessor cannot keep them
safe. When wealth and honours lead to arrogancy, this brings its evil
on itself. When the work is done, and one's name is becoming distinguished,
to withdraw into obscurity is the way of Heaven.