โ but if i look at myself realistically, i will probably realize โ
Posted: Tue, Feb 27, 2007 11:34:46 AM
that i have been doing better than i have been feeling.
and today i am feeling quite rushed and stressed. and to even begin to consider whether i have pure motives or not is the least of my concerns. it is a good thing that at this point in my day, i get a chance to ponder what is going on with me today. yes i have tons of work to accomplish and yes i do not know how i will get it done, but then again i never know how i am going to get anything done anyhow. so back to the grind and see what i can accomplish.
Postscript:
well after quite a day, i am feeling a little less overwhelmed. i still am working, but i got a bunch accomplished and i am ready to quit for the day.
about motives however, i would love a meditation that said if i am not sure ALL of motives are not pure to roll over and go back to sleep. i know in reality that would mean i did not get a whole lot done, and i would probably lose everything that provides this quite comfortable life that has developed over the course of my recovery, but it would be what it would be.
no i am quite comfortable accepting that today i am not a spiritual giant, and that it is not probable that i will ever be a spiritual giant. i like who i am today, the mixed up neurotic addict in recovery, and i am pleased that this is a program of progress not perfection. life is good today and i am getting better and that is what the point of this is after all!
and today i am feeling quite rushed and stressed. and to even begin to consider whether i have pure motives or not is the least of my concerns. it is a good thing that at this point in my day, i get a chance to ponder what is going on with me today. yes i have tons of work to accomplish and yes i do not know how i will get it done, but then again i never know how i am going to get anything done anyhow. so back to the grind and see what i can accomplish.
Postscript:
well after quite a day, i am feeling a little less overwhelmed. i still am working, but i got a bunch accomplished and i am ready to quit for the day.
about motives however, i would love a meditation that said if i am not sure ALL of motives are not pure to roll over and go back to sleep. i know in reality that would mean i did not get a whole lot done, and i would probably lose everything that provides this quite comfortable life that has developed over the course of my recovery, but it would be what it would be.
no i am quite comfortable accepting that today i am not a spiritual giant, and that it is not probable that i will ever be a spiritual giant. i like who i am today, the mixed up neurotic addict in recovery, and i am pleased that this is a program of progress not perfection. life is good today and i am getting better and that is what the point of this is after all!
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