๐ bearing witness ๐
Posted: Wed, Jul 23, 2025 10:02:55 AM
to the journeys undertaken by my peers in recovery is a boon. not only do i get to see what works for them and wonder if it may work in my life as well. i also get to see their missteps and learn from their harrowing experiences, just as they get to learn from me and trust me, i make plenty of those on a very regular basis. case in point, my struggle with writing a program to schedule my fantasy football league. i am now on my third iteration and quite possibly the third time may actually be the charm. be that as it may, i am still plodding along on it, before i go seek a solution on the internet. i have learned a shit ton about functions in python that i have never used before and today, may be a bit of a trip down the recursion rabbit-hole.
my job hunt is not producing the instant results that i desire and that is starting to build a bit of frustration. i do not know how or why is still have FAITH that things will work out for me, but i do. that fact alone, gives me more than a bit of pause, as it seems the cynic in me, had shut the fuck up and the optimist is in charge. not the way things usually work in my world. i will, like my coding project, keep plodding along and let of the results. that is one of the many things i have learned from my peers, as they navigate the modern world of AI job hunting.
in a spiritual sense, i refrained from calling someone and idiot, only to call them an asshole, as i judged their next action. seriously i am doing better at this and i am starting to feel the pain of life in the state of an unworked step. i am hardly misbehaving and i am not feeling homicidal, which only goes to show what a minute clean can do for someone like me. i am starting to get itchy and that discomfort indicates that if i choose to remain where i am for much longer, misbehavior may be the less of the thing i need to be concerned about. on that cheery note, i think the time has come to post this for the world to see and get of job hunting and code practice under my belt, before working on my project. it is a great day to be clean.
my job hunt is not producing the instant results that i desire and that is starting to build a bit of frustration. i do not know how or why is still have FAITH that things will work out for me, but i do. that fact alone, gives me more than a bit of pause, as it seems the cynic in me, had shut the fuck up and the optimist is in charge. not the way things usually work in my world. i will, like my coding project, keep plodding along and let of the results. that is one of the many things i have learned from my peers, as they navigate the modern world of AI job hunting.
in a spiritual sense, i refrained from calling someone and idiot, only to call them an asshole, as i judged their next action. seriously i am doing better at this and i am starting to feel the pain of life in the state of an unworked step. i am hardly misbehaving and i am not feeling homicidal, which only goes to show what a minute clean can do for someone like me. i am starting to get itchy and that discomfort indicates that if i choose to remain where i am for much longer, misbehavior may be the less of the thing i need to be concerned about. on that cheery note, i think the time has come to post this for the world to see and get of job hunting and code practice under my belt, before working on my project. it is a great day to be clean.
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