โ i will surrender self-will and seek knowledge of the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery โ
Posted: Tue, Jun 26, 2012 07:50:47 AM
i will leave the results in the quite capable care of that POWER. as it is quite plain to see, i am in one of those moods that precludes a whole lot of things, but most importantly even removing the figures of speech that ascribe human charcteristices to the POWER that fuels my recovery. i know that this too shall pass, but for right now i am quite content, with how things are today.
so after cleaning up a disaster and almost missing the bus, i am on my way to Denver, later than usual, but according to some aganda, that is apparenly not mine, as today was the day to leave my car at the shop and get my oil changed, that plan has been severely altered and yet, i am far from stressed, which for me is quite a state to be in. living through the frustrations of not doing what i had planned, being spontaneous and adaptable and only a tiny little whine here. there will be cheese served as well, all you have to do is ask, i will cut some for you :)
it is a good day to be clean, and today my youngest sponsee, in age anyhow, celebrates one year clean.
is there some sort of hidden message here? no not really, nor am i the butt of some cosmic, divine practical joke. and i get that it really is, just what it is.
a quick update, i did not write my step last night and as a result, my sleep was less that what it has been lately. BUMMER DUDE, but without a doubt a symptom of self-will and one that i will avoid tonight, by spending the time i need to take care of my recovery. i GET it, at least right here and right now, that i need not drive the bus, figuratively or literally. surrender, as nasty as that term may sound and feel to me, is what i am about right now. yes i have wants, desires and needs, BUT i can listen for and follow direction, and most imporatntly do the next right thing, which right now is signing off and realxing for the rest of my trip to downtown, it is a great day to be on this side of the grass.
so after cleaning up a disaster and almost missing the bus, i am on my way to Denver, later than usual, but according to some aganda, that is apparenly not mine, as today was the day to leave my car at the shop and get my oil changed, that plan has been severely altered and yet, i am far from stressed, which for me is quite a state to be in. living through the frustrations of not doing what i had planned, being spontaneous and adaptable and only a tiny little whine here. there will be cheese served as well, all you have to do is ask, i will cut some for you :)
it is a good day to be clean, and today my youngest sponsee, in age anyhow, celebrates one year clean.
CONGRATS GT, on getting 366 days in a row, i know you had to do an extra one to achieve your year
moving forward, i am not really fond of having to live the reading within moments of getting up, before i finish my coffee. life is life, there is no mystery here, i made choces, and there are consequnces,some i really like, such as a paycheck, some i do not, such as, having to run all over creation and work before i get to work. so it goes…is there some sort of hidden message here? no not really, nor am i the butt of some cosmic, divine practical joke. and i get that it really is, just what it is.
a quick update, i did not write my step last night and as a result, my sleep was less that what it has been lately. BUMMER DUDE, but without a doubt a symptom of self-will and one that i will avoid tonight, by spending the time i need to take care of my recovery. i GET it, at least right here and right now, that i need not drive the bus, figuratively or literally. surrender, as nasty as that term may sound and feel to me, is what i am about right now. yes i have wants, desires and needs, BUT i can listen for and follow direction, and most imporatntly do the next right thing, which right now is signing off and realxing for the rest of my trip to downtown, it is a great day to be on this side of the grass.
∞ DT ∞