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Posted: Wed, Oct 29, 2025 10:21:37 AM
my view of myself and the world around me, using a regular inventory helps me to adjust my skewed perceptions. what i took out of my source material this morning was a sense of taking personal responsibility as one of the ways to practice integrity. yes a daily inventory and the threat of having to admit i am wrong is an excellent way to reduce my desire to behave in a less than stellar manner. that does not, however, rule out my actions, reactions and response that come close to, but do not cross that line. i can still misbehave without doing wrong and that is where my head went as i sat this morning.
as a result of finishing my THIRD STEP writing yesterday, i uncovered that i still want to blame others for my less than positive attitudes and the world around me. i want to be a victim not a volunteer for settling for second best and being “good enough.” part of what i was feeling the other day, when i was all sorts of jealous about my financially successful friend was exactly that. why could he succeed when i am stuck in the mud. the truth is, he worked very hard to build what he has and i have always did just enough to get by. it sucks uncovering the fact that my lack of success is a result o my attitudes and beliefs and not because of how i was brought up or a string of “bad luck.”
taking personal responsibility for my life, means that i move forward into today and do my best to succeed. while it may be nice to be good-looking, younger and richer, the reality is that i have to uncover the ways and means to be what i am without attempting to be what i am not. that old man who i see in the mirror every day, is the real me. he has worth. he has merit. he has the ways and means to make his life better, by choosing a path that leads to a happier, healthier and more fulfilled self, even if it does not swell my bank account overnight. as i move into today, i will remember that i volunteer to be miserable and am not a victim anymore, just for today.
as a result of finishing my THIRD STEP writing yesterday, i uncovered that i still want to blame others for my less than positive attitudes and the world around me. i want to be a victim not a volunteer for settling for second best and being “good enough.” part of what i was feeling the other day, when i was all sorts of jealous about my financially successful friend was exactly that. why could he succeed when i am stuck in the mud. the truth is, he worked very hard to build what he has and i have always did just enough to get by. it sucks uncovering the fact that my lack of success is a result o my attitudes and beliefs and not because of how i was brought up or a string of “bad luck.”
taking personal responsibility for my life, means that i move forward into today and do my best to succeed. while it may be nice to be good-looking, younger and richer, the reality is that i have to uncover the ways and means to be what i am without attempting to be what i am not. that old man who i see in the mirror every day, is the real me. he has worth. he has merit. he has the ways and means to make his life better, by choosing a path that leads to a happier, healthier and more fulfilled self, even if it does not swell my bank account overnight. as i move into today, i will remember that i volunteer to be miserable and am not a victim anymore, just for today.
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